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| 29 weeks pregnant! |
I met the one I
thought was Mr. Right. I fell in love so
quickly. It was hard not to fall head
first in love. My mister was bold,
confident, charming, and totally into me—all I thought I ever wanted. Finally, it was my time to be in love
forever!
I recall my wedding day.
I awoke early that morning beside my husband –to- be. Yep, we were sleeping together, but not the
way you think. You see, we both had
chosen to not have sex until we were wed. We had finally made it to the very day that
all of our holding out would be over. Later
that day we would be able to let go and enjoy. Ah…but that’s another
story. Anyway, we got up and went our
separate ways. There were plenty of
things we had to complete before our 5 pm wedding.
Yes, by this time much of the running around should have
been over. But only a week had passed
since we decided to marry quickly, so things were undone. The week prior to our wedding was the week
that Hurricane Katrina decided to wreak havoc on the gulf coast. Baton Rouge had a lot of wind damage,
therefore, we’d been out of school and out of work for a week. But that didn’t mean blissful freedom;
everything, our stores, restaurants, and other businesses were out of
commission for the most part. I had
stayed with my then boyfriend for the entire week. So when things were up and running again I
didn’t want to go home. I realized just
how comfortable I was living with him.
It was early September.
I had been engaged since the previous July. (Our marriage counseling had already been
completed.) We originally had planned
our wedding for December. However, after
this brief, but beautiful stay together during a storm where most of the time
we had no electricity, we realized that we just couldn’t wait. We spoke to our parents to make sure that
they wouldn’t mind if we had a quick (quick in every since of the word)
ceremony. They were in agreement
probably because they wanted to please us.
(Sometimes when I look back, I wish someone would have told us to be
patient and wait, maybe just maybe I would have seen something that I couldn’t
live with. But oh, well.)
So we moved the
wedding date up…way up. We would be
married the next Saturday.
So, okay, back to my wedding day…My Louisiana bestie and I
met at the mall and did a little shopping in preparation for the day and especially
the night. My fiancé and I married on September 3, 2005. I had no family present. (I did have two very close friends with me,
though.) It was the happiest day of my
life!
In retrospect, however, I see that I so willingly gave up
all of my dreams for love. I didn’t take
a stand for the things that I had wanted my entire life. No family at my wedding. No bride’s maids. No flowers and none of the
sort. No honeymoon. I left my dreams
behind and it was only shortly after marrying that I regretted it.
Poor shame. Not
only don’t have my dreams of wedding bliss, but I also no longer have a husband…
This has been Melva’s TRUTH.
Remember: I am not the good news—Jesus is!
One Day I'll Tell
My Kids Entry #9
Dear Chandler and Baby Girl,
Dreams are special.
They are our hopes for the future.
When we are young we all begin to build our lives around our
dreams. Some dreams change. Some dreams die. Other dreams simply mature into your
futures.
I believe that your dreams and hopes are from God because I have
given you to Him. I believe that He
places your thoughts and desires in your minds and your hearts. Therefore, I don’t take what you hope for
lightly. I don’t want you to take your
aspirations lightly either. The dreams
that grow and mature inside of you are the dreams that I want you to fight
for. The dreams that you hold to now may
someday be a part of you. Don’t give up
on the things that God has placed in you, for me, for friends, or even for your
Prince Charmings.
Know what it is that you want realistically. Prepare for those things. And hold on tight. Many things may come and go, but the fullfillment of your dreams will always be a part of you! Go after your dreams!
Love you much,
Mommy
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